Filed under: work
After a lot of thought, a few tears, and leaving early from work because stress had gone right to my stomach - I made a hard choice. I’ll be going back to days after next week. I just can’t do it any more. I’m constantly tired, my emotions are nutso, I crave time in the sun, and I REALLY miss my friends and church.
There is another impending extenuating circumstance that is solidifying this decision for me, but, because it is not concrete yet, I am not at liberty to discuss it. Just needless to say, it was a sad night last night at work when we found out. Maybe sad isn’t the right word - if it isn’t, then “sober” sure is.
One and a half weeks of nights left and I already miss it. I was elated when I went back to nights as I felt more alive spiritually and happier than ever when I went back. Now I just cringe at the thought of staying on nights. I don’t go to church any more, I don’t ever see my friends, and spiritually I feel very dulled. I believe this change could be very good for my emotions too.
Surprisingly it was easy for me to switch back to days. I just asked Sully if it was possible. He wanted to know what side of the week I wanted and what shift I desired. I am going to stay second half of the week and possibly go 6:30 am to 7:00 pm. This will put me in both ends of the high que, but I’ll still be able to see my night shift friends, go to church on Friday and Sunday, go to cell group on Tuesday, and go to anime night on Saturday night with “the engine-nerds.” Plus, I won’t have to deal with certain supervisors that I really don’t get along with that work the first half of the week.
Well, I guess that is that.
Trip to Kansas City is still in the works - so is one weekend out with the night crew one week after the switch.
Well, back to sleep for another hour or so before I have to get up and go to work.
