Pick up a roadmap, you’re going to need it…

In the natural I know I should be very anxious right now. I don’t know where I’ll be working come this summer (only 2 and a half weeks away) or this next school year. I have a new friend who is looking up to me spiritually and I’ve taken on the job of teaching her some methods to make her time in the prayer room the most fruitful thing she can accomplish. I got a new roommate for my birthday – she is amazingly fun and all around amazing.

But. I’m. Not. Freaking. Out.

A few months ago – all of this at once would have had me really freaking out. Right now I’m just at the point tha tGod is the one who is going to do this for me. He is my source and strength. I keep finding myself repeating the same short prayers over and over.

“God, give me wisdom.”

“Lord, be my strength.”

“I can’t do this without you, Jesus.”

“God, I love you – show me how you love me.”

None of these prayers are very eloquent or very convincing in the natural. Oh but the cry of my heart is to know the Lord and to walk out his will.

I am weak.

I am tired.

But I have a God who fights for me, who dreams of me, who loves me.

So, for now I pray. I love. I teach. I give. I chose to be weak – I choose to be voluntarily weak and embrace the lifestyle Jesus taught on in the sermon on the mount. And for the first time in a long time – I’m enjoying this lifestyle. Its amazingly fun.

Each day is a day to savor and rejoice in.

Life with all its struggles and darkness is beautiful when put in the hands of the master potter.